March 30, 2016

Soooooooo many projects. So. Many. Projects.

The end of the semester and finals are drawing near.  I basically have a big project due this month in every class which makes for a crazy busy schedule.  I don’t know how I’m going to pull it off, I really don’t.

On a more positive note, I had my second interview yesterday!  I really do want this job in Washington D.C. and I really hope it works out.  I felt pretty good during the interview, but once I got home I started second guessing myself.  At this point, I’m checking my email every 5 minutes while thinking to myself, “You blabbed too much, oh gosh you talked too much you blew it.”  So I really just hope I hear some kind of response soon before I freak out.

While on the subject of job hunting, I’m starting to realize why so many people wait until after they graduate to start stalking the classifieds.  Trying to focus on classes, internships, and looking for a job is so hard to juggle.  Sometimes I can only focus on a few things at a time, and lately most of my focus has been on this potential job.  Before my senior year of college, I thought that I was behind.  In my eyes, everyone my age already had plans and were well on their way to starting their careers.  But the more I talk to other college seniors, the more I realize that isn’t the case for everyone.  In fact, most of the people I’ve talked to are waiting until after they graduate to start looking for jobs.  And I do not blame them.  Sometimes I think that I should’ve just waited.  But it’s rather exhilarating, knowing that I’m so close to figuring things out.  Being so busy is almost addicting, which is awful because I think I’m actually finding excitement in my own frustration.

This balancing act will be over soon, but that doesn’t mean life will get easier.  I’ll have the pressures of a full time job, I’ll have to start becoming more independent.  Finals will be replaced by taxes, and spring break will no longer exist.  Maybe I should have been on the 5 year plan…


March 26, 2016

Today was my sister’s 20th birthday, and we spent the day jumping on trampolines.

It’s Easter weekend and I think I temporarily went back into Spring Break mode because I haven’t done a whole lot over the past two days.  Finals are one month away and these next four weeks are going to fly by so fast.  Life will be hectic, I probably won’t get any sleep, and things will be a bit crazy.  But it needs to happen.

Just going over the list of things I need to do is stressful.  There’s preparing for graduation: ordering cap and gown (I think? Still figuring out how that works), deciding if I want to send out announcements, scheduling a senior photo-shoot, choosing a dress to wear under the ceremony gown (because that’s a priority?), and deciding on whether or not I want to endure throwing a graduation party.  School of course is a big one: finishing my projects, double checking my remaining assignments, start preparing for my finals.  Work: try not to fall asleep at my desk.  Internship: write, write, write.  Campus newspaper: crap, I was supposed to write a story this weekend.  Job hunting: still contemplating the latest position, to move or not to move.  Social life: Hahahahahaha.

In light of it all, tomorrow is Easter and I’ll get to spend some time glorifying God, which has always been a stress reliever for me.  I’m not really the type to be too flashy about my faith, I just really value my personal dependency on God.  When life get to be a little too much, I find a lot of comfort in knowing that He has a plan, just in case I screw mine up.  I have a good friend who gave me a wonderful piece of advice when I explained my fears about the future, he said  “Yeah, that’s what I think about a lot too sometimes I wish it was all laid out on a map! I’m going to sound like a total missionary right now but Proverbs 3:5-6 is a good one when I think of that! ‘Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.’”

My schedule is going to be difficult, but I’m actually starting to get excited.  It is a little bitter-sweet, leaving my college days behind.  But I have so much of life still ahead of me (very cliche, I know) and I am really starting to accept that.  I just hope that I can carry a positive attitude during these last few weeks.

March 23, 2016

So I didn’t post on Saturday, which reflects how busy I was.  I had a bridal shower, which lasted longer than anticipated.  And in the words of one of my professors, “You no longer have free time.”

I just spent the past 20 minutes staring out of the cafe window at a friend of mine conducting an experiment. I don’t know what the experiment was, all I know is that it was for a class.  And I just stared. That is how easily distracted I am.

There comes a point in time when a student has so much to do, and yet jumps at every opportunity to direct their time and attention to anything but their assignments.  I’ve hit that point.

I’ll probably do my assignments and projects when class gets out, but I won’t start really working until later tonight.  Despite the fact that I’ve been in college for a few years, I still wait until the wee hours of the night to do my homework.  This method has honestly worked out just fine for me, and if it ain’t broke don’t fix it right??

There is no shortage of distractions, either.  There’s Easter, family birthdays, enjoyable spring weather, and the looming arrival of summer.  It is very easily to get distracted, and I think a part of me is tired of dealing with the same questions and frustrations.  It gets old, thinking about the same issues all of the time, and so I think that distracting myself helps me forget about it.  

March 17, 2016

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

I know I’m a day late with this post, but I have a good reason!  Yesterday was pretty wild, and I’m still trying to process it even now. Allow me to explain:

A few days ago I sent an email to a friend who I used to work with in the district office of my local congressman.  I knew they were moving people around in their office positions so I thought I would let them know that I’m graduating soon in case a position opens up.  The next day my friend said he would forward my email to the chief-of-staff Cole to figure something out.  I had wanted to apply for their Washington, D.C. summer internship anyway so I sent that along as well, thinking that is what they would offer.

The day after that, I got a request for a phone call from Cole.  Little did I know, it was actually an interview!!

I already knew Cole from working in the district office, so the conversation went well.  He said the internship position was mine for the taking!  But then he presented an even better offer: a full time position.  As it turns out, the congressman needs a new Schedule Coordinator and the staff is looking for someone to fill in the open position.  Cole said that he thought I would be a great applicant for the job, and he proceeded with the interview.

After all of the questions and job description, we scheduled a second interview for next week.  In a few days I will have to go to the district office for a video conference call with Cole and the congressman.

When I finally hung up the phone, my mind was racing.  No matter how the interview next week goes, I’ll have an opportunity to work in Washington D.C. in May.  Moving across the country is huge, and working a job with so many opportunities is even bigger!!  This is exactly the type of thing I’ve been waiting for, something that can open up doors and kick-start a future.

If I get the job, I’ll be in charge of scheduling and keeping track of all of the congressman’s meetings, appointments, and engagements.  I will also be the direct contact regarding his schedule.  It will be a demanding job, and working on Capitol Hill will be quite the experience, but this is something that I just can’t pass up.

So this week most of my thoughts will be centered around my upcoming interview, which hopefully goes well.  Thoughts of the east coast, politics, and being an “adult” are filling my head.  A part of me thinks this is too good to be true and that I shouldn’t get my hopes up.  After all, I’ll be fresh out of college with virtually no experience in schedule coordinating.  Cole said that if everything works out, I’ll start training via the internet in April and will move to D.C. as soon as possible in May.

Moving to a completely different area will be tough again.  I have a few friends on the east coast who have assured me that it’s great, so I’m feeling pretty optimistic at this point.  But once May rolls along, I’ll probably start to freak out.  I only have half a semester left, and May is just around the corner.  If I end up getting the full time position, there’s no telling when I’ll move back to California.  This will put a strain on my relationship, I’ll be far from my entire family, and the work will be overwhelming.

Despite the intimidation that this job brings, I really do believe that this is the best thing for me right now.  The sales job with the newspaper was fine, but I honestly don’t see myself in sales and there’s no telling when I would actually get the opportunity to write.  This position in D.C. however, gives the opportunity to be exposed to a large number of other jobs as well as making last contacts.

I’m hoping and praying that next week goes well, and even if I don’t get the job I’ll still have the chance to travel and add another great experience to my resume.

March 12, 2016

Tomorrow is the last day of spring break.  I’m only human, so a big part of me wants to stay at home and continue to watch Netflix as rain creates a calming atmosphere.  But there is a part of me that is excited to go back.  I want to immerse myself back into the crazy schedule that is my life at school.  I want to stay busy because honestly, all of my responsibilities take my mind off of the stress I’ve been feeling lately.  The stress has sort of heightened while I’ve been home.

I have been staying in my old bedroom for the past week.  I could feel myself lapsing into my former self, my childhood self.  I even spent the week watching every single Harry Potter movie (totally worth it).  My childhood self was very introverted, and for the past couple of weeks I could feel myself becoming more and more introverted than I usually am.  Being home really maximized this part of myself, and I also just wanted to escape all of the questions that having been filling my head lately.

Questions seem to be the theme of my life this semester.  Not one specific question, but many in general.  Questions about my social circle, questions about my academics, questions about my relationship, questions about my career path.  I get asked questions every day by my friends and family.  I find it exhausting because the questions that are most frequently asked are the ones I don’t want to answer.  No, I don’t know when I want to get married; No, I don’t have a job in mind for after graduation.

Returning to school will help me temporarily run from the questions.  The questions will turn into exams and quizzes.  I will be required to use logic and memory rather than major decision making.  But there are only a few short weeks left in the semester, and classes will be over.  The questions will still be there.  And there will always be questions, this isn’t just a temporary phase.

March 9, 2016

Today marks the middle of spring break.  It has a bitter-sweet feeling to it.  The return to classes looms in the distance, and yet there are a few free days left.  Unfortunately those free days are going to be filled with all of the homework and studying that procrastinated on.  I always tell myself that I’m going to change my ways, but I never do!  Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator.

I haven’t had a crazy spring break.  No trips to Mexico, no days at the beach.  It has actually been raining a lot so there goes the sunny vacation every college student day-dreams of.  But, on the bright side (no pun intended) my interview went well!  On Tuesday I had a job interview for an advertising sales position.  It was more intense than I thought it would be, and I’m not even done with interview process yet.  I was given an “assignment” to go back with a prepared presentation to sell them an ad in a fictional magazine.  I have been doing some research and preparing myself, but I’ve never done anything like this before so it should be interesting.

When I was doing my research for the presentation, I thought to myself, “Have I learned anything from any of my classes that could help me with this?”  I am a communication major, so I definitely didn’t learn anything about sales.  I took a class on visual rhetoric, so I guess that’s connected to advertising?  And as far as presenting goes, I know how to speak clearly and orderly (to get an A, not a sale).  I realized that non of my classes directly connected with this scenario.  I didn’t take “Sales and Advertising 101”.  Nor did I take “How To Convince Someone You Know What You’re Doing”.

I have, however, taken Media & Society, in which my professor literally told the class “Your education isn’t going to guarantee you a job.”  And now I am really starting to see how right he was.  Sure, my college degree will show my work ethic and the well rounded aspects of my studies and knowledge, but it doesn’t tell an employer how well I will perform specific tasks.  It’s up to me to show my experiences, strengths and talents.  I think as students we expect too much from our diplomas.  My college degree won’t earn me a job, I will.  I think this is something all students have to realize.

March 5, 2016

Today was my first full day of spring break.  When I woke up this morning (and rather late I might add) I breathed a sigh of relief.  I have a few days without the burdens of classes or homework.  Sort of.  While I don’t have to attend class and I don’t have any assignments due this week, I will as soon as I get back.  I have two midterms and quite a few assignments due when I get back, so my carefree sigh of relief only lasted for about 3 seconds.

But amidst the spring break blues of working and studying, I am extremely excited.  On Tuesday I will have an interview for my first (possible) full time job.  It is for a marketing and sales position at a local newspaper.  I am really looking forward to this, and I honestly really want the job.

Sometimes in life we have these “AHA moments”.  I usually don’t entertain the existence of these moments, but I had one recently. For most of my college experience, I have not had an answer to the “dream job” question.  I would always reply, “Any job is a dream job!” because I honestly didn’t know what I wanted.  Now I do know what I want, and I realized that it has been there the whole time.  I like news.  I like news gathering and I like news production.  And I like writing.  Everything that is encompassed in a newspaper, magazine, broadcast or web post interests me and inspires me.  And this is the way I have always been.  It’s who I am.  I have been ignoring this part of myself, either brushing it aside or making it complicated.

So last week I went to the career fair.  I sought out the representatives for the newspaper and presented who I was.  I felt heard and respected and like the individual that I am.  When I got the call for the interview a few days ago, I felt this rush, like somehow this was supposed to happen.  I know that there is a chance that I may not be hired, I might not be who they are looking for.  But now I have this sense of direction.  Direction is something that I have been lacking lately, and this little arrow was exactly what I needed.