March 30, 2016

Soooooooo many projects. So. Many. Projects.

The end of the semester and finals are drawing near.  I basically have a big project due this month in every class which makes for a crazy busy schedule.  I don’t know how I’m going to pull it off, I really don’t.

On a more positive note, I had my second interview yesterday!  I really do want this job in Washington D.C. and I really hope it works out.  I felt pretty good during the interview, but once I got home I started second guessing myself.  At this point, I’m checking my email every 5 minutes while thinking to myself, “You blabbed too much, oh gosh you talked too much you blew it.”  So I really just hope I hear some kind of response soon before I freak out.

While on the subject of job hunting, I’m starting to realize why so many people wait until after they graduate to start stalking the classifieds.  Trying to focus on classes, internships, and looking for a job is so hard to juggle.  Sometimes I can only focus on a few things at a time, and lately most of my focus has been on this potential job.  Before my senior year of college, I thought that I was behind.  In my eyes, everyone my age already had plans and were well on their way to starting their careers.  But the more I talk to other college seniors, the more I realize that isn’t the case for everyone.  In fact, most of the people I’ve talked to are waiting until after they graduate to start looking for jobs.  And I do not blame them.  Sometimes I think that I should’ve just waited.  But it’s rather exhilarating, knowing that I’m so close to figuring things out.  Being so busy is almost addicting, which is awful because I think I’m actually finding excitement in my own frustration.

This balancing act will be over soon, but that doesn’t mean life will get easier.  I’ll have the pressures of a full time job, I’ll have to start becoming more independent.  Finals will be replaced by taxes, and spring break will no longer exist.  Maybe I should have been on the 5 year plan…