Soooooooo many projects. So. Many. Projects.
The end of the semester and finals are drawing near. I basically have a big project due this month in every class which makes for a crazy busy schedule. I don’t know how I’m going to pull it off, I really don’t.
On a more positive note, I had my second interview yesterday! I really do want this job in Washington D.C. and I really hope it works out. I felt pretty good during the interview, but once I got home I started second guessing myself. At this point, I’m checking my email every 5 minutes while thinking to myself, “You blabbed too much, oh gosh you talked too much you blew it.” So I really just hope I hear some kind of response soon before I freak out.
While on the subject of job hunting, I’m starting to realize why so many people wait until after they graduate to start stalking the classifieds. Trying to focus on classes, internships, and looking for a job is so hard to juggle. Sometimes I can only focus on a few things at a time, and lately most of my focus has been on this potential job. Before my senior year of college, I thought that I was behind. In my eyes, everyone my age already had plans and were well on their way to starting their careers. But the more I talk to other college seniors, the more I realize that isn’t the case for everyone. In fact, most of the people I’ve talked to are waiting until after they graduate to start looking for jobs. And I do not blame them. Sometimes I think that I should’ve just waited. But it’s rather exhilarating, knowing that I’m so close to figuring things out. Being so busy is almost addicting, which is awful because I think I’m actually finding excitement in my own frustration.
This balancing act will be over soon, but that doesn’t mean life will get easier. I’ll have the pressures of a full time job, I’ll have to start becoming more independent. Finals will be replaced by taxes, and spring break will no longer exist. Maybe I should have been on the 5 year plan…
Today marks the middle of spring break. It has a bitter-sweet feeling to it. The return to classes looms in the distance, and yet there are a few free days left. Unfortunately those free days are going to be filled with all of the homework and studying that procrastinated on. I always tell myself that I’m going to change my ways, but I never do! Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator.
I haven’t had a crazy spring break. No trips to Mexico, no days at the beach. It has actually been raining a lot so there goes the sunny vacation every college student day-dreams of. But, on the bright side (no pun intended) my interview went well! On Tuesday I had a job interview for an advertising sales position. It was more intense than I thought it would be, and I’m not even done with interview process yet. I was given an “assignment” to go back with a prepared presentation to sell them an ad in a fictional magazine. I have been doing some research and preparing myself, but I’ve never done anything like this before so it should be interesting.
When I was doing my research for the presentation, I thought to myself, “Have I learned anything from any of my classes that could help me with this?” I am a communication major, so I definitely didn’t learn anything about sales. I took a class on visual rhetoric, so I guess that’s connected to advertising? And as far as presenting goes, I know how to speak clearly and orderly (to get an A, not a sale). I realized that non of my classes directly connected with this scenario. I didn’t take “Sales and Advertising 101”. Nor did I take “How To Convince Someone You Know What You’re Doing”.
I have, however, taken Media & Society, in which my professor literally told the class “Your education isn’t going to guarantee you a job.” And now I am really starting to see how right he was. Sure, my college degree will show my work ethic and the well rounded aspects of my studies and knowledge, but it doesn’t tell an employer how well I will perform specific tasks. It’s up to me to show my experiences, strengths and talents. I think as students we expect too much from our diplomas. My college degree won’t earn me a job, I will. I think this is something all students have to realize.
Today was my first full day of spring break. When I woke up this morning (and rather late I might add) I breathed a sigh of relief. I have a few days without the burdens of classes or homework. Sort of. While I don’t have to attend class and I don’t have any assignments due this week, I will as soon as I get back. I have two midterms and quite a few assignments due when I get back, so my carefree sigh of relief only lasted for about 3 seconds.
But amidst the spring break blues of working and studying, I am extremely excited. On Tuesday I will have an interview for my first (possible) full time job. It is for a marketing and sales position at a local newspaper. I am really looking forward to this, and I honestly really want the job.
Sometimes in life we have these “AHA moments”. I usually don’t entertain the existence of these moments, but I had one recently. For most of my college experience, I have not had an answer to the “dream job” question. I would always reply, “Any job is a dream job!” because I honestly didn’t know what I wanted. Now I do know what I want, and I realized that it has been there the whole time. I like news. I like news gathering and I like news production. And I like writing. Everything that is encompassed in a newspaper, magazine, broadcast or web post interests me and inspires me. And this is the way I have always been. It’s who I am. I have been ignoring this part of myself, either brushing it aside or making it complicated.
So last week I went to the career fair. I sought out the representatives for the newspaper and presented who I was. I felt heard and respected and like the individual that I am. When I got the call for the interview a few days ago, I felt this rush, like somehow this was supposed to happen. I know that there is a chance that I may not be hired, I might not be who they are looking for. But now I have this sense of direction. Direction is something that I have been lacking lately, and this little arrow was exactly what I needed.
In a previous post I wrote about how I wasn’t stressed about midterms, and that I really didn’t feel too much pressure during midterms week. I lied. It is now Wednesday and I am in full midterm mode and it is not fun. I’m not sure if it’s just something about this semester, but it feels like one moment I was receiving syllabi, and just yesterday I had midterm study guides thrown at me at the last possible minute. I know I like to procrastinate, but something about this semester feels rushed.
So in the midst of midterms, my schedule has been completely filled. I mentioned that I was going to a career day, which I did yesterday. I got dressed up, printed out copies of my resume, and headed over. The flier for the event made it sound like the companies had full-time job offers and other opportunities, but I found that only about half did. Most companies only offered internships, and some didn’t offer any positions at all. I spoke to a few booths about hiring possibilities, and I felt like it was a productive experience, but it wasn’t quite what I expect. Also, I just have to make a comment on the conduct of other attendees there. I was speaking to a gentleman about job opportunities at his establishment, and I young man bounded up borderline pushing me out of the way. He aggressively stuck out his hand towards the gentleman and introduced himself while I was still speaking. I was thrown off-guard so I turned by back to him and continued the conversation because I wasn’t about to let this guy just ruin my opportunity. Turns out, he can only walk the walk because once the gentleman made it clear he wasn’t done speaking with me, the guy walked away as fast as he appeared. I totally understand that you need to be assertive, especially when it comes to job hunting, but this guy was rude and I couldn’t help but feel proud of myself for icing him out.
Hopefully I will be hearing back from some of the company’s I talked to! If not, it won’t be the end of the world but I really would love to hear back from someone.
Late. This post was supposed to be published on Saturday but I was thrust into a busy weekend. On Saturday I spent the day in Turlock, California to watch a few old teammates play a tennis match against Stanislaus State. It was so great being able to visit with old friends, some of whom I haven’t seen since May. I miss being on a tennis team, but I still stand by the decision I made to transfer to Fresno Pacific.
I wanted to go to FPU because I felt like I wasn’t getting the most out of my college experience. I wanted a job, an internship, or some type of experience that would help towards a future career and I felt like tennis wasn’t doing that for me. So here I am, juggling a few different responsibilities. My old teammates said to me “Oh, you must have so much free time now!” All I could do in response was laugh.
This week midterm exams are coming up, and to be honest I’m very stressed. I really don’t even have too many tough midterms which is nice because last semester was brutal when it came to midterms. I genuinely think that the reason why I am not stressing about midterms is because I am stressing about other things.
Lately the subject of finding a job I actually enjoy has been on my mind. I am just so afraid that I won’t find something that I particularly like because I haven’t found a specific career goal yet. I decided that I will go to the Fresno State (nearby university) Career Fair on Tuesday and I am just going to keep an open mind and put myself out there. Maybe I’ll express interest in jobs I hadn’t before, maybe I’ll be exposed to some I didn’t know about. I’m just really hoping that this career fair will be helpful because I don’t feel like time is on my side at the moment.
Job hunting is tough, I am not really enjoying the process so far.